10/20/2006

Legal Age

18+ shows honestly make me really annoyed/upset.
I can think of two particular reasons of having them, so alcohol can be served and so annoying teenagers don't screw around. But honestly. When your favorite bands are coming to town and you think you will have the opportunity to see them, it's really a blow when you go to Ticketmaster's website and learn that the show is 18+, and you are underage. It must be worse in places like BC for example, because their legal age is 19.

I still think it would be better for bands to play all ages shows, though. Maybe to make everyone happy, they could play an all ages show, and an 18+ show? It would certainly give them the opportunity to get more money (I know I know, blah blah blah, all bands aren't monetarily based), and it would give ALL fans a chance to experience live music. And if people who are over 18 have a problem with teenagers, they could go to the 18+ show.

In general, I think SOME legal age stuff is stupid. For example, I know people my age, or underage, that are smart and mature. And, I know people of legal age who are, let's say...dumber than a sack of hammers. Obviously society has to set regulations in place to regulate things such as alcohol and tobacco consumption, etc, it just frustrates me sometimes.

dear heart,

Some days, I am scared that you might jump out.
That all of a sudden, the cavity of my chest
Might not be suitable for you to live in anymore.
One day, while I am walking down the street,
I will burst open spontaneously,
Scattering drops of blood across the sidewalk
Like red paint on canvas, like art.
Tiny pieces speaking volumes.
You will run down the street, arms flailing
Wailing that you are now free,
Free to be who you want,
Free to love?

10/15/2006

Oh, life.

Tanya and I were having a discussion about life the other day.
Some meaningful things actually came out of my mouth.
Well, my fingers rather, 'cause I was typing.

Pretty much.
I mean at school, all year, every year, since kindergarten, we're always asked what we want to be when we "grow up", or how we are going to make a difference, etcetc. Maybe they've all already learned it's pointless, and are simply waiting for us to learn the same thing, or maybe they are so close minded that they just can't see that yet either.

I mean, honestly. We're supposed to be doing what is considered morally right, or whatever. Get good marks. Be a good person. Be nice. Don't throw food. Don't bully, etc etc. But you are essentially right, those goals impact absolutely nothing outside of our close minded little world. Being an atheist, I don't believe in life after death, so I don't see how much of a point those silly little goals have, other than to get us a "good and respectable place in society".

You're right....we really are insignificant. What is to say that any human being has more importance or relevance than a star, or something seemingly useless? I really couldn't say much on the 'creator' theory, because I don't really believe in it, but I honestly think faith and religion have a place in the world simply because they comfort people...I mean, it's so much easier to say that god is "testing you" or "rewarding you", but really, it might just be you doing a good job or fucking up personally. (that doesn't make much sense, sorry)

It is kind of weird to just think we are controlled by a bunch of electrical impulses and chemistry, and the only thing that essentially differentiates us is at the basic genetic level, my hair is light brown and yours is darker because of some gene, or people have different skills or different levels of intelligence, again, because of some gene.
I think people are trying to make life out to be some big huge endeavour when it might not actually be that....


I honestly don't think [life] amounts to much of anything.
Sure, you can make an impact on someone, but unless you are someone like, say, Gandhi or an extremely famous musician or extremely famous person, etc, you really aren't going to impact a lot of people.
And even if you do, does it really make a difference?
Let's face it. People like to live and want to make a difference, but honestly, all life could very well be useless. So why would it be relevant anyway? One useless person can walk around and make a difference on another person, but by that logic, both would still be useless anyway. What are we really accomplishing?
Maybe there isn't really a point, that's what occasionally scares me.