himhimhim.

some days i wake up and can't believe i'm doing things this way, but i am.
i like a boy.
he is nice, occasionally funny, and just a sweet person in general. i'm glad i met him; i really am. i'm not glad that i seem unable to let go of the past however, and that sometimes even his name brings back the memories i swore to myself i would one day forget. i dislike how i can't get in to a relationship with him because i'm too scared of the consequences, good or bad. i'm terrified of relationships currently. i don't want to get near them because i'm afraid i'll get hurt again, or things will go wrong, etc. it's funny how i thought for so long that i needed a new boyfriend, someone to complete me, when really all i needed to work on was trying to complete myself. it's going to take a lot of work-- can i do it? sometimes i hate the way certain things make me feel, as if i'm helpless and unable to change anything about the one way track my life is (or seems to be) on.
i really like this boy though, and i hope things will work out for the better.
i need a good thing in my life right now, i really do.

ps-- about the 'triple' title, i believe something seems to mean more, have more emphasis or seem more important when you say it three times. try it for yourself.